She took her seat and sat among the hundred other pupils who had their faces buried in their books in an optimistic but futile attempt at developing eidetic memory. It was almost half past eight in the morning and Jane’s eyelids were as heavy as they could get. She opened a can of Mr. Brown dark coffee and chugged it down instantly hoping the caffeine would keep her alert. Minutes later, the question booklets were passed. Everyone in the room raced to turn the first page and read the questions whose answers would determine their lives, their fates. Jane did too. She traced her finger across the first question and read aloud the words in her head:
“Explain the notion of ‘free will’ and discuss how individuals exercise their free will in their daily lives.”
“Easy,” she thought.
She picked out one of the blue ball-point pens Mrs. Davis had asked everyone to bring and spun it around her fingers. She liked the feeling of having it in her grasp, moving around the way she wanted it to. But she felt a tinge of uneasiness.
Jane read the question again, and again.
“Free will is the power of acting without the constraint of necessity or fate,” she repeated to herself.
She had studied the textbook religiously and would have been a fool to not know what it is, but she still couldn’t explain how people exercise their free will. She thought harder, but to no avail. She let go of her pen and watched it bounce before it fell flat on her desk. The clock was ticking. Tick-tock. Tick-tock. Tick-tock. Tick-tock. And then it hit her.
She sat up straight and looked around the room quizzically. Everyone else had their heads tilted down and eyes fixated on their papers. They looked like robots hardwired into doing the same thing, writing the same words. She let out a laugh.
“How could I have been so stupid?” she exclaimed.
One of the invigilators gestured her to be silent, but she took no notice. It was so clear to her now. There was no such thing as free will.
Then everything came rushing back – the hours she had spent doing projects and writing papers, the extra tuitions, the sleepless nights, the ballet classes, this exam she was sitting, and the other things she had to do. She had nodded to the demands of her parents and teachers thinking it was a choice she was making when in fact, she had simply been following through on the decisions they made for her. She was only deluded into thinking she had a choice, into thinking she had free will. But now, everything was so crystal clear.
It had hardly been fifteen minutes into the exam when Jane got up and left the hall. Her paper lay on her desk, untouched by the nip of the blue ball-point pen that inked all the other papers.
Now, that is what I call free will. But really, is there anything like free will? It can only be free if it didn’t have any consequences and most times, those consequences are fatal. One way or the other, we are always led by another.
I like the tempo of the writing.
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Your words are so true! And thank you 🙂
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My pleasure dear.
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I got a giggle out of it
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i like ur style of writing…and description of things …good work.
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Thank you 🙂
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Of course , the way it dawned on her seemed hilarious.
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Very cool! Good stuff
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Thank you (:
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Wonderful story! I enjoyed the sense of suspense/urgency in such a short work. It gives me the same feeling of irony that I get when I read O. Henry. Great job.
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Thank you so much Nathaniel! Means a lot 🙂
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Good one!
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Thank you! (:
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Excellent story. I really, really enjoyed it. Poignant and attention -grabbing. Could the only ones who exercise free will be those who flout the laws, the rebels and anarchists?
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Thank you so much for your kind words! You’re right! Only a select few get the privilege of exercising free will and they are usually those with (unchallenged) authority.
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It is an interesting way of looking at that group with fresh eyes.
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Lovely write up.
Gave me food for thought.
Is she showing free will or rebellion?
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Thank you! I’d like to think she’s showing both. Free will in deciding she doesn’t want to take the exam any longer and rebellion in terms of challenging the institution (school) that deprives her of free will 🙂
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Very nice story. Great how you ‘opened the protagonist’s eyes’! 🙂
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Thank you (:
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This is actually very insightful!
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Thanks 🙂
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To me, free will is an independent spirit, a mind that is capable of searching for answers without being bound by society’s constraints. Actions may or may not follow it.
It was a good read Faristha.
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Agreed. Thank you for reading and for your kind words!
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You must join Friday Fictioneers some time… I think you will enjoy.
https://rochellewisofffields.wordpress.com/2016/04/27/29-april-2016/
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I will definitely check it out! Thanks 🙂
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